before you make the first cut..
Before you make that 1st cut.
“Before you make that first cut remember. You will enjoy this. You will find the blood and pain release addictive. Even though you think you can make a few tiny cuts that aren’t deep and will heal easily, they will get deeper. They will scar. They will sometimes take months to heal. And years for the scars to fade. If you think you can limit the cutting to one area of your body think again. It will spread when you run out of skin.
Be prepared to withdraw from others and live in a constant state of shame. Even if you are the most honest person ever to live you will find yourself lying to the people you love. You will jerk back from your friends when they touch you as if their hands were dipped in poison. You will be terrified that they will feel something under the cloth of your shirt, or just because it just plain hurts so much to be touched.
Just wait for 10 cuts to turn into 100… Be prepared for your entire life to revolve around cutting, and thinking about cutting.
You won’t be able to make it through a day without cutting. Next thing you know you’re locked in a toilet cubical somewhere breaking open a scar with a sewing needle you keep in your purse for emergencies. When you get really desperate anything can be a cutting tool. Scissors, car keys, needles, even a pen. It doesn’t really matter what if you need to cut bad enough you’ll find something.
You will wish you never made that first cut because you will absolutely hate cutting; but at the same time you love it and cannot live without it.”
Sure, hurting myself makes me feel better, but only for a little bit. Then, you get disgusted with yourself. Your body is covered in scars. They may fade, but you will always know that they were there.
You can say goodbye to the things you take for granted, like tank tops, short sleeved shirts, shorts, even bathing suits. After awhile you will get tired of hiding out in a closed room and wearing long sleeved shirts.
You may think, the cuts will only stay in one area of my body. But that’s not true. You can say all you want that it will, and you can promise yourself that it will be confined to the one area, but be prepared to break that promise to yourself. When you run out of skin, you will move to another part of your body.
I swore my cutting and burning were going to stay on my arms, but it moved to my wrists, then my thighs, then my hips, then my ankles, and now my stomach.
If you hurt yourself, it WILL take over your life.
Do yourself a favor, and don’t hurt yourself. You will be giving up a lot. At first, you may feel better, but then the relief you feel starts to diminish. So you cut deeper, burn longer, or hit harder. Then it gets worse and worse. It just goes downhill.
You may think, I can control it! It’s the only pain I can control. Not for long. It will start to control you. You WILL become addicted. You won’t be able to go too long without feeling like you need to hurt yourself. It will start to call to you. You won’t be able to avoid it.
Please, think before you make that first cut. Don’t do it. It’s not worth it.
i feel unwanted now and idk why
im so sorry guys
you are so perfectly gorgeous and strong the world smiles because of you and your beautiful face. Stay strong baby girl.
honestly thank you. you are so sweet. im sure you’re beautiful too :)
literally fuck you
nice blog but i doubt you can beat my high score at tumblrtreats(.)com ;)
ha thanks, and i doubt it too
ASK ME THINGS LOL
1. Are looks important in a relationship?
2. Are relationships ever worth it?
3. Are you a virgin?
4. Are you in a relationship?
5. Are you in love?
6. Are you single this year?
7. Can you commit to one person?
8. Describe your crush
9. Describe your perfect mate
10. Do you believe in love at first sight?
11. Do you ever want to get married?
12. Do you forgive betrayal?
13. Do you get jealous easily?
14. Do you have a crush on anyone?
15. Do you have any piercings?
16. Do you have any tattoos?
17. Do you like kissing in public?
20. Do you shower every day?
21. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year?
26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you?
28. Have you ever been cheated on?
29. Have you ever cheated on someone?
30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body?
31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl?
32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love?
33. Have you ever had sex with a man?
34. Have you ever had sex with a woman?
35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends?
37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?
38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone?
41. Have you had sex so far this year?
42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander?
43. How long was your longest relationship?
44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?
45. How many people did you kiss in 2011?
46. How many times did you have sex last year?
47. How old are you?
48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?
49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her?
50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?
51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for?
52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why?
53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?
54. Is there someone you will never forget?
55. Share a relationship story.
56. State 8 facts about your body
57. Things you want to say to an ex
58. What are five ways to win your heart?
59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!)
60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners?
61. What is the first thing you notice in someone?
62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you?
63. What is your definition of “having sex”?
64. What is your definition of cheating?
65. What is your favourite foreplay routine?
66. What is your favourite roleplay?
67. What is your idea of the perfect date?
68. What is your sexual orientation?
69. What turns you off?
70. What turns you on?
71. What was your kinkiest wet dream?
72. What words do you like to hear during sex?
73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you?
74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for?
75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you?
76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone?
77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships?
78. What’s your dirtiest secret?
79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why?
80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
81. Who are five people you find attractive?
82. Who is the last person you hugged?
83. Who was your first kiss with?
84. Why did your last relationship fail?
85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet?
86. You’ll love me if…
I’m tired of the constant voice in my head telling me to skip one more meal, or too cut just a little bit deeper. im tired of feeling alone in this fucked up thing we call life.
